From my heart to yours. I don't know where you are at in your recovery, but I want you to know that there is someone who wants everything that is bothering you and hindering you from moving forward in your life. I can tell you there is a life that you are meant to live and to be lived to the fullest, by "fullest" I mean full of blessings and a great relationship with that someone.
The Someone that I am talking about is God. He is VERY real. I want to start by saying that He loves YOU so much. I know the second you read that, you are immediately filled with doubt. I can tell you that that is a HUGE lie. You were created by God and He sees no flaw in you simply based on the fact that He created you.
God is so in love with you that he paid a price for your heart. He wants to change you life to what it can be without all of the hurt, confusion, depression, and most of all loneliness. He wants to replace your dark days into lovely days. He knows how much it is hurting you right now. It breaks His heart that you are in pain, but there is good news that follows this; He can, and will, crush any pain or discomfort that you are experiencing... only if you come to Him completely broken and humbled and if you allow Him to. There is no better feeling than to be humbled and giving the reins of your life to the God that has the power to take our breath out of our bodies.
He knows what happened in your past and that you have seen the wrong side of humanity. He has seen your pain, your tears, and most of all He has heard your heart cries. I can reassure you that there is no prayer that falls upon deaf ears. God even hears your enemies cries, what makes you think you are not worthy of being heard?
The price that God paid for a relationship with you is that He took his one and only son, who was a perfect, gentle, honest, and holy; He sacrificed him on a cross so that you are able to have forgiveness and to live a life completely opposite of what you have been living. But the price doesn't stop there, he rose from the dead so that you may know that He is alive and waiting in the corner for you to let Him into your life and most of all, your heart. He wants to clean every crevasse of your heart so that you will know what it feels like to love yourself because the God of everything loves you, and He will live in your heart! I promise you, my friend, it is the best decision that you can make for yourself and for your life. I guarantee blessings will happen. The only thing you have to do is confess that you cannot live your life alone, and you want Him to take over EVERYTHING in your life. I know this may sound scary, but what is even scarier is putting your own life in your own hands. We are so weak and feeble that we break at every disappointment that comes into our life. What he is offering you is to let him make whatever disappointment or discomfort that approaches you: have it CROSS our path, not to be CARRIED by us on our path. He wants to carry it for you. When we put our life in our own hands, it is constantly a worry of how everything will turn out. Don't you think that is a waste of energy? You are supposed to be joyous and not worry until the next ugly circumstance comes along. Life is hard as it is. He knows that. He wants to take over so you don't have too. When we put our life into God's hands, we are trusting that He will take care of it, and us. That, of course doesn't mean to kick up your feet and do nothing. It means that He wants to take the stress off of you so that you can finally rest within yourself and His presence. He wants to be your heart's little pillow to lighten your pain. The best quality that He has is a best friend that you can depend on.
In the Bible Jesus says, (Matthew chapter 11 verse 28-30) "Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart. and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." Cast your cares and worries onto Him, and you will find the rest that you have been seeking so long by yourself.
I know I am not perfect, you are not perfect, and oh my gosh, not even my mom is perfect. But we can do this together and fight against the evil thoughts that we have towards ourselves. I can tell you now that God only has good thoughts towards us. There is no room for evil when it comes to Him. Take comfort in that, for His yoke is easy and His burden is light.
You are beautiful, smart, and amazing in every way. I ask you to step out for yourself and give your life to God and ask him to come into your heart and change it. He NEVER delays with that request.
I'd rather give my life to a God that conquered death above all things for my heart. There is no other greater love than this!
You are worth dying for!
"Take Me As I Am"- Lecrae
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